It's all blurring together

"Hey Monkey, where you been? This lonely spiral I've been in....Hey Monkey, when you open up your blue eyes..." ~ Counting Crows

I started making a list tonight, a list of important events and moments in my first year here in Los Angeles. I want to write it down and capture it all before the years start to blend and blur together, as life tends to do.

It absolutely blows my mind the events, moments, memories and people who played such an important part in my life in Year One in Los Angeles. What a journey I have been on! I think about how much I have grown since moving and how that was the best thing for me. My entire world has opened up to this city, to the culture and diversity and music and moments, ones that make life worth it.

Calmly sipping wine, happily, with my friend just a few days post-breakup....my first "first date" in three years...staying up 'til three in the morning to survive my work place...reuniting with old high school friends like it was the most natural and meant-to-be thing that life has to offer....losing Grampy...the sweet chaos and adventures of Croatia...my hilarious dating stories...becoming addicted to all things FOOD, starting my own business...dance competitions in my little Brentwood Chateau...the slew of dinner parties...

I want to know: who was that girl who was so scared to move? Who was the girl who was skeptical of moving to Los Angeles, scared she'd never find a group of friends like she had in college? Who was the one who doubted herself at work when it came to the financial aspect of marketing? Who was the one that was a bit uncertain of the future?

I don't know her any more.